not a disturb

10:12pmB
i just sent you a msg as i thought u were gone....
gone
gone
gone

10:15pmZ
the line is shit!
i reallize that just 2 months to go to a new year!

10:17pmB
are you a big fan of new years?

10:18pmZ
no...
i think i should leave here soon after new year...

10:19pmB
where will you go?

10:19pmZ
wow i am a bit paranoid!
dunno, nothing been done
except i got enough money in my acc for 3 months to apply visa in case i got to stay here :p

10:20pmB
i think change is necessary... but think hard


x


10:50pmB
ok
no pressure
and yes I hope to see you on tuesday....

10:51pmZ
i am looking forward to get on track by the way...
felt disturbed

10:53pmZ
i think some relationships makes me felt being tie up, i mean relationships esspecially between family.. i am really cool now and know why monk have to give up all relationships before they become monk
dunno whether u know what i mean... anyway, u dun have to understand ><

10:54pmB
you're not telling me you want to become a monk ?
sorry ignore that

10:54pmZ
haha, almost

10:54pmB
i know what you mean

10:55pmZ
no prob!

10:55pmB
some say 'it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all'

10:55pmZ
i am feeling tired.. of everything sometime. aha

10:55pmB
but i know you

10:55pmZ
:)

10:55pmB
and i know sometimes you find everything and everyone a little difficult sometimes

10:56pmZ
yeah, just a little, but can kill sometimes :(

10:56pmB
but can kill sometimes?

10:57pmZ
i mean "can kill me" but i know i will be well, yeah

10:58pmB
i couldnt help but think of you sometimes when i read Norwegian wood... you take things to heart too often sometimes

10:58pmZ
... really? not quite understand..

11:00pmB
the characters are little consumed with melancholy, and it things you've said just reminded me

11:02pmZ
i like this word, melancholy, just learned about it from my frens english husband, i really like it and thinking that's really me :p

11:03pmB
i know, i've told you that you are melancholy in the past
i think you thrive off of it at time
s
it's like fertalizer for you

11:05pmZ
yes, maybe, i am positive about it, thank you :)